Is Jesus just a part of your life? Or is He your everything? How much do you truly desire Him? Recently, I was going through a season of darkness where it felt to me as though God was very far and I couldn’t get any answers to my questions. I was still spending time with Him but it just seemed like there was no progress in my spiritual walk. Thankfully those were just feelings.
2 Corinthians 5:7 (NKJV)
For we walk by faith, not by sight.
I found strength from this Word of God and refused to be governed by my feelings. I knew God’s promises for me and I trusted in Him and His faithfulness towards me even when I felt like I was far from Him. In the Bible, when Job was undergoing a lot of trials, from his perspective, God seemed far, but the truth is, God was watching over him very closely.
Hebrews 13:8 (NKJV)
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
This means He loves me with the same love that sent Him to the Cross to die for me. This love never changes and never fails. I constantly reminded myself of His promises and love for me as I continued seeking Him.
As I persisted to seek God daily with a sincere desire to know Him, over time, I realized that I had walked out of the season of darkness. Something that hit me during this season is how much I really needed God in my life. When I failed to experience Him, my spiritual life felt so empty. My reading of the Bible seemed so fruitless and my prayers felt unheard. So I made an effort to spend more time with God in prayer and His Word. Seeking God has become so much more important to me.
In the past, I used to go to God with a heart of getting my reading and prayer done, there wasn’t much sincerity in it. It did not occur to me how important He was in my life and even though my heart desired to know Him, I did not put it into practice through my actions. And I failed to realize how much He wanted to spend time with me.
I made a commitment to choose God over the other things in my life, and this realigned my priorities and set me on the right track. Then it occurred to me that God had done what He did so that He could bring me back to Him. The season of darkness I went through was to bring an awakening within me.
Romans 8:28 (NKJV)
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
In this journey, He has awakened me to realize how little I was seeking Him and how much I was missing out on. Our capacity to receive is determined by our hunger to pursue Him. God was working in me to not only change my perspective of His love for me but also to bring a radical change in my lifestyle. I never knew that worshipping God could be so awesome and I never knew how powerful prayers were. I was living a life that prevented me from experiencing God in His full measure because I simply had no heart to pursue Him. Now I know that if we would just make Jesus the centre of our lives, there would be so much more we can receive.
A joyful heart is the inevitable result of a heart burning with love. As we allow God to reign in our lives, the outcome of such a Christ-centered life is a joyful heart and many other things that come with it such as wisdom, peace and love. Therefore I encourage you to worship God, to give your heart to Him. Worship isn’t a twenty-minute period during a church service, but it’s a lifestyle of relating to God with your whole heart. In all that you do, seek to glorify His Name and please Him. It doesn’t matter what others think or say, the only thing that matters is what God sees in our hearts.
Jeremiah 20:9 (NKJV)
…But His word was in my heart like a burning fire shut up in my bones; I was weary of holding it back, and I could not.
This is my prayer for all of us: that we would have a passion for Jesus so strong it overflows and you cannot hold back proclaiming His word. Now that I have come to realize in a deeper way how good and awesome God is, I will not hold back any longer and I encourage you to do the same. I cannot put into words how great it is to experience Him; you have to experience it for yourself. I just want to give thanks to God for showing me His glory and satisfying me in His love. Praise You, O God!
Let us pray.
“Dear Heavenly Father, You know my heart and whether or not I truly desire You. Make my heart right with You that I may experience the full measure of Your love and power. I want to be satisfied in You, I want You to be my everything. Set a burning passion in me that won’t hold back in worshipping You and proclaiming Your Word. Let me be a testimony for You and make me become more like Jesus. Father, teach me to pursue You with all my heart. I give thanks that You hear my cry and You know my heart’s desire. I know that You are moving right now in my life as I pray this. Thank You, Father. In Jesus’ Name I pray. Amen.”